I just wanted to stop by and tell everyone hello. I miss you guys and haven't been able to get online to read up on everyone's blogs. I usually read them all daily. I feel really good today. For some reason I am loving life and just cleaning up my house. I am so excited about the ideas I have for our apartment. I got a whole bunch of really cool stuff at a garage sale and I am totally redecorating our apartment. Its a lot of fun and it keeps me busy. I just wanted to say hey and see what was going on.

Kitty

Today is our anniversary. We have been together for five years. I remember the first time I laid eyes on him. I knew at that moment that he was the one that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I am so blessed to have someone like him to love me. He is so amazing. Especially when it comes to my mental health and school. I don't think there is a more supportive soul on this planet. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He has completely saved me from myself. He is amazing. Now that I look at our beautiful family and realize that five years ago today is when this great foundation was created. It warms my heart that I am one of the lucky ones to be loved so much by so many beautiful people.

I woke up today feeling better than I have in a long time. I kept dreaming that all these birds were stuck in my home. There was an eagle, a baby owl, and many other little birds like swallows and finches. I wonder what it means. All I know is that not only do I know that everything will be okay, but I feel it deep within my heart.  If anyone knows what it means to dream about birds please let me know. Talk to you all later.

Kitty

I have been feeling a little bit better since I had my little breakdown. I am getting my meds adjusted and just focusing on the woman self of myself right now. Thats what my therapist calls it. I am taking a break from school this term which is only eleven weeks and then starting back up in January. I think that was the best choice, because I have been neglecting myself. I am a mother hen and I take it upon myself to take care of everyone else. I have been ignoring my needs so that is what I am working on. I just wanted to let you all know what has been going on. OH! Taylor and her mom moved back this weekend. Her mom said that it ended up she couldn't afford living up there and they moved back. I feel much better about all that so that makes me happy. I am so glad that she is home. Now if we could just have her live with me.lol. I will talk to you all later. I know some of my dear friends on here are having problems where they live and know that you all are in our prayers and we are lighting candles for you every night. I love you all.

Blessings,

Kitty

Yesterday I woke up and it was like a bipolar day. I felt like I had a neon blinking sign above my head thats say."hey I am f**ked up in the head". It was bad, I pretty much cried all day. I didn't even go to schoo. It was like something in my brain just snapped and all the bad stuff that has happened this summer just came rushing over me. I felt horrible, but I am proud of myself. As soon as I realized that I was having this bad day I called my therapist and my caseworker. They said that I am bipolar and that this happens sometimes. The last time this happened was over a year ago. So as far as that goes I guess I am doing pretty good since its been that long since I felt that bad. They have me seeing the doctor next week. They think my meds may need adjustments. Anyway, I am feeling a little bit better, but not entirely. I just wanted to let you all know what was going on.

Kitty